Next Step, Moving On

[dorightman]

Regretful, I understand how bad anger is, I had a half a dozen angry responses in the past 5 months. They only set me back, for all I know, they may have been the final "nail in the coffin", but who knows. It's hard to speculate whether things would have changed if I had done this or that in the past. I believe my w has had her mind made up for a looooong time, way before August. She just had too much guilt and fear to act on it until August.

I still can't for the life of me understand why she's doing this. I still suffer when she comes into the room with me and the kids and gives them good morning kisses and love and ignores me. I cannot get through the day without detaching myself from her, it hurts too much.

I'am on the fence about whether I should move out, or try to stay in the house and be detached. She has threatened to move out with the kids if I don't. I don't know if she is bluffing or not.

I'am on the fence as to whether I should keep hopeing that she will come around and give us another shot, or whether I should just move on with my life.

I feel the same as you do, I want to love and be loved. Being around a S who acts like ours is a downer to say the least! It takes ALOT of strength to get through everyday with them. And in my case, she's acting like my friend, even if it's better then my enemy, it's still weird and painful.

I know I have to detach, and staying in the house makes that much more difficult.
I will continue to work on myself and take care of the kids and me....