Seriously? You think all this is because God is punishing you? You're actually saying that you were selfish to not get D'd? Get real.
It's called life. There are good points and bad ones. The problem is that you've allowed your W's attitude to affect your self-esteem. It's according to HER will that you're miserable NOT HIS.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.