Walking the path to my own happiness

[mamabird]

And thank you GH31 and FM - your insight into what happens after an A is very helpful. My H did have panic attacks the first time around and also went into a depression which he is still experiencing. I am sorry to hear what you went through. That must have been terrible. I know this has been very hard on my H too.

Both of you, GH and FM, have been treated horribly by your Ws. GH, when I read your story I was beyond shocked. She F'd with you big time, BIG TIME. I am amazed that you took her back. I mean, that was an unbelievable story.

And FM, your wife has also done her share of wavering and it sounds like you two have been through the ringer... currently though, she's treating you pretty badly I'd have to say.

Although I wasn't very happy in my M, my behavior never approached anything like what the two of you have experienced. Closer to FM but I know I am trying at least...

Perhaps the separation will serve to bring us closer together, but I don't know. Somehow I continue on this path though I don't feel like my heart is in it. I think about the hot guy from the party constantly. Maybe that's just a distraction or something to make me feel better, hope maybe. I don't know. We would have a lot of work to do to get where we needed to be. I'd be willing to try, but I just don't have very much faith in my H.