Thank you again for the replies. Not doing well this weekend at all. The more I read (on this site especially) the more hopeless it seems. There aren't many examples of men that wake up and want there families back, are there.
My husband cancelled plans with my daughter again yesterday to work. He's strictly chosen work over our family for the past couple years and that's actually a reason it's hard to give up hope. Because I know he loves his daughters fiercely, but he cancels with them often and I used to take that personally. But now I'm out of the picture and nothing changes. So on one hand I'm glad to let that one go and also feel that any R he's in would fall under priority of his daughters, so it's not something he takes seriously. But that was the man I used to know... I feel bad about myself for wanting him back. We had a bad couple of years and I even thought about not being married last winter. And even when he left at first, it was a few months of shock and I thought for sure we were going to R still. And it truly wasn't until he made it clear that wasn't in his plan did I panic and reaffirm that I want my family back! But now we dont talk and it feels like he'll never know that. But he's not the husband that I want and I don't know when or if he ever will be again. It just feels like this is never going to end. I did really good GAL before Xmas, been fighting grief really bad since then.
