Advina-- just feel like I have tried so hard and nothing has worked. I haven't heard from H all weekend and that usually means they are together. I have been wondering if her claim that he was moving there is in fact true.. The thought makes me sick to my stomach.. Thinking perhaps all this time he has been lying to me and his kids. I know he will have to contact me eventually, but who know anymore. He is digging a pretty damn big hole and ever minute that goes by it will be harder to get out. I think the worst is not knowing what he is truly thinking, or planning, where he is , but every minute that goes by,, the less I want him s'more. Not what I envisioned as we all know he stands to lose more with me then he ever would with her. Know I am completely dark now with one hand on the phone for a lawyer. Sis in law will be here weds, kinds think I should kick him and move on. They are completely disillusioned, angry, heartbroken with him and his actions, as I am. Biggest idiot on earth eh?
