Ex: We are divorced but we act like a family. We shouldn't confuse our daughter that the marriage is just understanding. I cannot love you again. In my wish to have a family I spend a lot of time with you. But it prevents us to start a new life.
I agreed, I didn't know what to say.
Me: I thought three of us were pleased to be together.
She: Yes, it is like narcotic. I want more and more, but it is not real. You should not come so often. I think that we have to spend our winter vacation separately. I will have your time with her and I will have mine.
So she cancelled my reservation and is going on a holiday with our daughter, my ex's brother and his family.
She completely changed her attitude towards me. She again became distant and cold.
I know that I didn't do my best. I stopped praying during our reconciling. Apparently I am not designed to have a family.
My faith is not strong enough and I am extremely selfish.
Please, God, forgive me. Why did you allow my existence?
