Hahahaha! I NEED one of those buttons. I have no idea which end is up.
What do you mean that you are "holding on by a thread already?" Then later you say "no biggie." I realize the "no biggie" is in relation to using your H as a mirror, but sometimes you sound so hurt but then get this steely resolve as to almost not acknowledge it. You are allowed to be hurt, CV. And you are supposed to acknowledge it. I worry, I guess.
I know what it is to feel like I'm talking to someone who isn't responsive. My H would play the shell game with me. I would talk about an issue we were having and he'd respond about how the treasury might mint a $1 trillion coin. It was insane to me. And very very hurtful. Somedays I wanted to shake him. But, for me? Most days I didn't think he cared about me all that much. And he probably does in his own way. Unfortunately, "his own way" is not an environment I'm able to thrive in. My problem? Sure. Doesn't take away from the deep hurt and loss I feel. What burns me the most? He wasn't anything like this throughout our relationship. He'd literally chase me around the house when there was an issue to get it resolved quickly. Now, he can't run far enough.
Anyway, it's fine to be tough, but it's important to acknowledge the hurt.
Has your H said anything today regarding yesterday's events?
