When tapestries of life get tangled in the loom.

[MrBond]

"my S not responding to me made it difficult for me to be intersted in him IN THE BEGINNING ."

Uh I believe we all understood that. Which is why you don't understand that it's YOUR job to GET INTERESTED. Especially at the beginning. It's why you are having a hard time bonding with him now.

So again, I ask (and others are listening).

So what exactly have you learned about your son? When is his next doctor's appointment? Do you know what to do if his eczema or stomach problems come up?