Top of the roller coaster again. H came over to play games with the boys and asked me to play too. Friends invited me out to dinner tonight and found out they invited him too and he is coming as a surprise for me. I don't know what anything means. It's all highs and lows. I'm just waiting for the next blind side. Am I now so pessimistic? He wants to go out with me and I am thinking next week ill get served. He still feels our marriage has been bad and he has been miserable for the past 12 years (I didn't ask, he twisted that into conversation) but then why the heck does he want to be around me at all? I asked him today if he has heard from his family. Nope. He spoke to his parents on Christmas and New Years for a few moments and that was it. He says they are giving him space. I asked how he felt about it and he said it would be nice to know they cared. They always deal with everything by giving space and not talking about it.
M38,H39 M:16Y BD:8/12 OWDB:11/12 S:11/12-5/13 "Temp" home:6/13 OW dropped:9/13 "I love you":12/13 H ring on:2/14 Depression back:5/15 "I'm done:" 7/15 H moved out: 3/16 H moved back: 12/16 Working on us: 3/17
