I'm so sorry Cor. I know my whole sitch really put a damper on my confidence. I still have major trust issues because of it. I keep wondering if something I say or do is going to trigger my H's desire to leave again. It's very hard after a major "vow" is broken.

I am trying to just continue living my life and being the best I can be. If I'm satisfied with my actions and behavior, that will be good enough for me. As long as I'm kind, considerate, and empathetic, I'm good enough.

H will have to figure out what he wants and needs. I won't mold myself to please a mate any longer. That just leads to resentment and poor behavior on my part.

I'm acting "as if"...as if everything is good unless he wants to tell me it's not. If its not for me, I'll speak up.

I'm hoping time will make it all easier. I told H a few days ago that I missed the days when we were able to take each other for granted, in a good way.

M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing