Advina..I started a different thread because I thought it was a completely different question..still relates to the situation but maybe just trying to understand the actions and all...if that makes any sense. Maybe, you are right, about the marriage being in trouble and niether of us realizing it. H has always been away at work for extended periods of time...but always came home. He has always said I am completely innocent in this, I have never been to blame for this..he was never looking for this. He has always said he loves me..always has, is never leaving, I am # 1 in his life..for him that has never changed. I understand the loneliness of being away from home, earning a decent living to provide for us...I have always said, without him working with the union, being sent where the work was, has enabled us to get to the position where we are now. (We own several properties..while we are not cash rich we are asset rich). I understand the loneliness, the desire to feel needed, desirable, wanted, important, loved..( which I have always done, I have always been his biggest supporter), as recently as 2-3 months ago ( yes, even though this affair was going on), we had been making plans, putting into action about moving stateside, purchasing property in the US ( we live in Canada).