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[Notlikingthis]

Thanks for the posts MrB and Sunshine. I'm having a rough evening here. I think fear is keeping me from doing what you've both suggested. I don't want him the way he is, that's for sure. I do want him to wake up and smell the roses.

The confusing part of all of this is that we do have fun when we go out and almost always have wild/crazy private times both here and when we take trips. That's the comfusing part. We have a good time together! There are times when he shows signs of depression and just wants to sleep or sit in front of his computer and they seem to be getting more frequent over the past few months. He didn't want to go to our family Christmas party and I didn't push it. At the last minute he decided to go because he thought it was the right thing to do. Of course, he had a good time when we got there. I am begining to feel like I have to keep him entertained to keep his interest. I don't mind doing that but lately it doesn't seem to be enough, he's not here, he's there.

He fits the desciption of Frank Pittman's "Emotionally Retarded Man" perfectly. He needs the drama and swirl that comes with the OW. It helps his brain feel good.

I will do exactly that MrB...no answering the phone, no responding to texts and if I allow myself to let go and say what I've been thinking, I WILL tell him how disrespected I feel. I know that I deserve to be with someone who cares and respects me even though it's the last thing on my mind right now. I've held back for long enough. I just have to make sure that my Mediterranean blood doesn't boil and I say things I will regret.