It's usually not a good idea to talk to mutual friends about all this, at least not details. It wouldn't be seen as a positive by your W, no matter what your sitch and you'll get someone else's interpretation based on their viewpoint.
It often muddies the water.
What have you been doing for yourself?
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss