You know, I don't know if I can. I mean, TODAY I could be her friend. However, if there were a boyfriend, a husband (or even if I was invloved with someone) that would be a total game changer. Therefore, in the long run I doubt I could be an actual friend to her.
I am going to concentrate on myself. I have got to get more detached. I think I am still in the denial stage. I honestly can't picture us carrying through with a divorce, and I know that's not healthy to think that way. Recently, I have been trying harder and harder to detach. Another thing I know I need to work on is not discussing my wife or our marriage with friends and family. Anytime someone calls, it is too easy for me to open up and share. I am sure some of it is getting back to her, and of course that would be considered as pursuing. I've worked on shutting my mouth, but obviously I need to work harder on NOT sharing with friends and family.
On a side note, since we revisited the "friendship", she hasn't initaited a phone call or any interaction. I'm going to hold back until she does. Time to man up
