I hate this "his day my day" stuff. I feel like less than a mother when I can't do things with my kids or take them whenever I want. I am not used to it because H has never been around.
After talking to the attorney i discover one of the reasons my attorney did not want me to sign the mediation papers is that his attorney was using that as a strategy for getting out of the house. I asked how that was possible and my attorney told me the use the argument that the parties have already agreed on placement for when they live apart why can't that start now? My attorney is so wise. No wonder he is so expensive. Lol!
I have been purusing the web looking for places for me after this is over. It is scary thinking about moving. See I am not worried about living on my own once I get there it's the physical task of moving web setting up shop so to speak. I guess I should change my mindset to look forward to it as something I will have complete control over right? I can't paint walls any color I want. I can put furniture anywhere I want. I can put a nail in any wall anywhere I want. Pinch me I'm dreaming! Lol!
I should take one moment at a time. But I often fast forward into the future. It's the worrier in me. What? Me worry?
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
