I am on mod so I am not sure if you will see this within the next few days, but hang in there. It sounds like you are beginning to find out what "you" want. I am still stuck in limbo so I am envious!
Me: 40 H: 44 M:3 years T: 4 years Me: S9, D7 H: SS8; Twins: SD1=10 and SD2=10 Both married before.