LIS, just remember, the unknown is not necessarily bad. Perhaps the abyss in not an abyss afterall. Perhaps it's a glorious view of the horizon, but you just can't see it yet because of the fog.
I get the conflict with the guilt and the Christian beliefs and the vows. It would be easy to leave if the reasons to stay weren't so complex. This still might be the best thing for both your H and yourself. Maybe it's time to hand it over to God, if you can. You KNOW He has your back.
