LIS, you're way too kind! Clearly you're going through some significant cr@p at the moment! I wish there was a way I could help YOU. My stuff will be the same tomorrow and the next day and the day after that, for about 6 years probably.
I don't think you should take it too personally. I'm not sure your H would notice you weren't there if he was passed out much.
Do you enjoy your work? Do you have any hobbies you could focus on for now? Any volunteer services? It's not like your plans for the future have to be monumentally different, but for me, just the thought of "peace" is appealing.
