Just got off the phone with my father. I don't know why I feel so humiliated. Like such a huge failure. Just so embarrassed. Ugh. He's a recovered alcoholic. And he was trying real hard to explain to me the nature of the whole thing, but I found myself getting upset. I don't know why. I just didn't want to hear it. Just humiliated that I got myself into this.
You would still be willing to meet him in the middle? Ok, what does that mean to you. There is no compromise with the lying and I get that and don't think there should be. What's the next biggest issue? How would you be willing to meet him in the middle?
I understand about the therapist and you are quite right about working with what he had.
I understand about the car ride. You don't miss the fighting. Boy, I get that so much. But what do you miss? What place are you trying to get to? You said that from the beginning there might have been issues creeping in. You also stated today that you might have had fairytales in your head as to how things would be (don't we all). So, where are you trying to get? Someplace you were at before with your H or to the fairytale?
