wishing, It's okay to cry. I think you do it out of frustration, as well as hurt and disappointment. Crying is a way of cleansing the wound, so to speak. I do think that after each bout of crying and anger, you are getting stronger.
We all have felt the same you that you do...it's not fair and yes, we are the ones cleaning up their d@mn mess that they left behind. But, look at it this way, once you've cleaned it up and you are living your life to the fullest, your life will be good again and you can determine just how you want to live your life and help your children live theirs.
I'm glad to see you are doing research on the various personalities. It may help you along the way.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
