I started my new job today and it went well but I had a little panic attack. My h stopped by his moms last night to tell her we were having trouble. She figured that out on her own but he didn't tell her about the affair. I have a gut feeling he is paving the road to begin staging an exit. He told me not to worry that he told his mom it was him not me but him. She asked him some questions and made a comment that she never saw my husband put his arm around me.
I reflect on my marriage and I know that I have some fault as well but many times I was disrespected and others noticed. My one daughter is very angry at h because of the affair. My son said he will not be like his dad to his kids. The marriage counselor once said that sometimes women in my position who divorce feel a big weight lifted. Somtimes when I think of not having to deal with him a sense of relief. Today a little panic.
H is going to visit a cousin in California to get away. I still think he is lying and talkin to ow. If I get confirmation of that I will b done because I will never trust him again. Actually I don't trust him now.
