Almost Over...

[Dewayne]

Things I know I did wrong and am working on / fixed:

Anger Issues: Almost done. I get aggravated but I haven't yelled at a driver in I don't know how long, I've learned to control it and walk away when I need to. My friend's have noticed, my mother has noticed.

Uncaring: I didn't care about people, and it bled into my marriage. I have worked a schedule and got up every morning thinking of something to say or do for others. STarted with the wife. I no longer have to read the paper. I Get up and think "what would I do for my wife if she was here?" And as well as "What can I do for my roommates today that could help?"

Manipulative: I use to manipulate people. Usually not my wife, but I'm sure I have. I have made it to the point to where I try to always think about what I'm about to say or do, and make sure it's not something manipulative or controlling. I mess up from time to time, but it's very rare now. If I catch myself, I correct it, even if it was a lie, I correct it and apologize.

Listening: I have gotten to whenever my wife speaks to me, I always try to shut up and listen good, I look her in the eyes and nod and block out all distractions. If I'm watching TV or playing a game, I stop immediately and listen.

Fatherhood: Well this speaks for itself. My daughter now comes first and I don't mind at all tending to her every need. I WANT to, in fact.

Forgiving: I am being a much more forgiving person than I use to be. I look at it like everyone makes mistakes and we should try to be as forgiving as God has been to us.

A lot of these things i've been working on in the past, for the last few years. She served me papers before about 5 years ago. I Didn't know and she Bdropped at my work one day with the papers. I was back in a week. I obviously didn't learn my lesson. She even asked me "why would you learn NOW? I served you before?" I told her exactly this "Because last time you let me back inside of a week. You've hit me with a truck, turned my world upside down and had everyone kick me while I was down for the last few MONTHS! THAT'S why I learned now"

I will continue to work on myself. GAL and other things. I hopefully will be employeed soon. Delivering Pizzas. Don't laugh, there's a driver with 6 years experience and he owns his own home, and 2 cars with everything he needs inside of them.