"He doesn't want me coming near him to even hug him so I have left that alone completely. I I is this because he has told me this. So if I being told don't touch mr or hug me it feels awkward,I am not going too."
I remember that intimacy was a big problem with you in the past so he's probably afraid to open up to you, thinking that things will go right back to the way they were. If he does open up again, are you committed to having the intimacy issue change for good?
Have you done anything to "spark" his interest? You could try by dressing in a more sexy manner if you haven't. Something drastic needs to show him that things won't be the same but he has to SEE that. One thing I would suggest is to go up to him and tell him "I just wanted you to know that I understand what you're going through and if you need to talk to someone I'm there for you." Then just give him a hug and walk away.
"Of course he's free to feel what he wants. Should I just accept this as a feeling and not read any more into it?"
No his feelings definitely matter because they are real to him. His depression is like someone who has fallen into a hole. He looks all around and all he can see are the walls of the hole. He doesn't realize that all he has to do is look up for a way out and that are there holding the ladder. You can help to show him the opening but ultimately he has to WANT to get out of that hole.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
