The alcoholism is perfectly understandable as to why you feel the need to seek acceptance by the W and why you have so much anxiety. Hopefully you can see this.
If you don't want her to see your private conversations with AA, then just open a new gmail account or tell her that you would appreciate if she didn't check your emails because you are working through things and would appreciate some privacy. Tell her that she is more than welcome to ask questions about your treatment and you will be open to telling her everything, however she cannot check your messages.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.