Things have been going really well. W and I seem to be at a new normal. There's a lot of conversations that include things we'll be doing in the future. We laugh a lot. We express our gratitude when we do things for each other. We're affectionate with one another. (I'll try to get into more specifics when I get time)
Christmas was awesome with our kids, D7, S4. W was really on cloud 9, which was really nice. Our level of "togetherness" as a family felt amazing. (when our sitch first started one of the things W mentioned was she felt really lonely with me last years xmas morning)
I still struggle at times. For example this past week she has been "different". More quiet than normal, not as affectionate and outgoing, grumpy at times and short with the kids. In the past I would get quiet and a little resentful when she does this, but now I'm taking a different approach by trying to remain upbeat and keeping a smile on my face. I asked her a few days ago if everything was okay, she said everything was fine so I left it at that and refrained from asking her again. Every marriage has its ebbs and flows and I'm sure this is just and off week for her. Might be coming down from the high of Xmas season.
We still haven't had a R talk since our piecing "really" started just over 3 months ago. I'm not sure if this is good or bad. I've contemplated using J3B's line of "Have I been doing alright by you?" line but I haven't yet.
My anxiety has come back a little lately. Its been close to a year since I had it last, but have been dealing with it (anxiety/panic disorder)for over a decade. I'm really hoping it doesn't escalate as it will be a hurdle in our R recovery.
M-38 W-32 D7, S4 M-10 BD-May '12 S for 1 month-June '12 Reconcile, Piecing
