Bklyn Gratitude

[BklynMom]

Hi guys just wanted to check in. The girls and I are having a great new year. Each day they say and do the most amazing things. I am so blessed to have them in my life.

That said I need to vent, spew and mind read for a little bit. My d4 brought up riding in ow car this morning. I didn't react. But what gets me is that ow is a goody two shoes. She thinks she is a respectable person. My h too. They both think and really believe because they weren't bopping a year and half ago then they were friends that is okay for them to pretend to be a family.

Stbx also needed to change the parenting time this weekend because he is working. He said he could pay for a babysitter if I already had plans. This harks back to 3 months ago when I worked on a Saturday. He got mad at me because "I assumed he was availablity to babysit". That I treat him like a babysitter.

You know what this guy is a jerk. Of course I will change my plans to spend the day with my kids vs stick them with a sitter. A few months ago when I didn't suggest a babysitter it was only because the man I married would have thought that was nuts

New topic

My h has cleared out his belongs from the house in may. Over the summer he asked me if he could have the music hard drive. I said no even though he knows I have no idea how to set it up or what to do with it. I think I thought maybe he would move back home for the hard drive.

I really just wanted to hold on to a piece of him because I was so hurt and scarred.

This week I am giving him back the hard drive.

(why am I crying right now?)