Soul.Searching my way back.

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks guys. It is hard, especially when H calls morning and night to ask if I want to talk to the kids and then most of the time, ends up talking himself.
Well except, he hasent called tonight. I think his pissed at me. What's new? Lol

He called this morning for the kids to talk, then asked me if he could borrow some console games, as OW has a console. After some silence, I told him he could take them but I didn't want them back, not after he took them to use with OW. I also told him I want him to collect all of his stuff from here, in the next few weeks, as I'm not just going to be waiting to see what he wants next.
Some if the games were ones he brought or ones I brought for him.
He told me when he left that he didn't want them, I could have them.

I don't really care about them, there's a lot more important things to worry about but I am not sharing stuff from when we were a family, with him and OW.
It might sound childish but that's how I feel. If he wants them he can have them but I'm not sharing them. I'm sick of passing stuff back and forth.

He said he had to buy everything again, then got pissed and said he will be picking the boat back up again soon. Apparently he is going to sell it and buy a better one. Good for him!

I'll get my own boat one day, I don't need "his"
I'm not using it anyway. It's only here because he can't afford rego.

So he didn't call tonight and since I talked to the kids already today, I think I'll wait until tomorrow to call. I think it's been bugging them, talking to me so much on the phone.