Not sure what to think, brain is confused and muddled. Wish I could sell up and move else wear. But know that would take time. Just wish i could believe or trust him. But I don't. Wish he would see reason or even a counclor but doesn't think he needs it. Starting to think that serving him with Seperation papers might wake him up, not even sure about that. We spoke briefly tonight, he finally told one of his friends what had been going on.. Sort of. Told him it was nice for him to have someone to talk to. He said you have my parents and Randi D.. And I said no.. Won't drag them into this. Too much damage already. He said another friend- V .. Said nope.. Not fair on her.. What about M? Said nope.. Already know how she thinks about affairs. So in reality, I have no one. He was quiet.. He tells me he isn't going, but wish I could have someone to talk to. Everything I do, fails.. Can a relationship survive if there is no trust? In his mind he isn't leaving me.. But still think there is contact. Am starting the 180 but can we make it if in his mind there is no issue yet in mine thier is?
Feels like I am at square one again. If I didn't love him so much, I Woolf walk away. Just wish he would see a therapist-- dealing with su k a stubborn man.. Does the mind a twist
Why does it feel like now that his parents: sister and our kids know that I am back to square one. Or that, while he has told me and his D that the OW is not an issue, that I am back to square one.. I am the one dealing with thier anger, frustrations, depression, and sympathy from his parents. With no one to talk to. Feeling like I can't trust him or that I no longer believe him-- back to square one. Thought about one last email.. But haven't yet
You mean your emotions are back like at the beginning? For me I felt trauma all over again when we told the kids and again when the neighbors started to find out, so I understand. I have felt like the extreme emotions settle down quicker and my rational mind kicks in quicker than the first time. venting here helps.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
I've read your posts, I know you're kidding. Hang on, it's just a roller coaster. ((((Carole1213))))
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
