Well I couldn't think of a good excuse to call of the dinner with the wife and family. Today was the day we trade the kids for the rest of week so it made some sense. That and I had meat in the fridge that would have gone bad if I wasn't cooking for more than myself! I put on a good show of being upbeat and happy despite being the opposite on the inside. It was nice to see her as always and talk to about anything but us. I made sure no "where were you the other night", no relationship talk or and physical touching(hug/kiss).It was nice, But.........
I think she likes it like that. Perfect to cake eat. No guilt, no pressure, just a good freindship. If we were divorced and it was months down the road it might work for me but not right now with someone else in the picture. Thats painful. Knowing that I'm struggling to move forward and find some way to salvage our marrige and she is in a "fun" new relationship.
I'm going to try detaching even more for the next week. Its hard because I'm a responsive person. If you text/call me you get a response because that's how I like to be treated. I feel bad if I don't.
