Almost Over...

[Dewayne]

Yeah, I know that I'm not ready for anything. I've been telling all my new ppl I meet (not many at all) that I'm just looking for friends. I need to meet new people to create a new circle of friends and get out. Most all respect that... but a few of the girls I've met haven't really respected that much and I feel are actually trying to sabotage, being all negative in every way possible. NEVER saying anything positive etc. So I've cut them loose.

Yeah, I realized JUST NOW, hence why I'm back lol, that I should've told her in the car "No, that's ok, I don't want to watch a movie with you" or something similar but, seeing as to how she may not have the fuel to keep running back and forth, I'm prepared to spend time with both of them.

We're only a few weeks away from court date. So I guess I may as well try to DB as hard as I can until then and see what happens. I'm starting to feel I'm not being as fair to myself, or the marriage. Starting to feel that if I don't at least try to DB until court / finalizing then I failed. At least this way I'll know I did all I could.