Is this MLC or WAS? Don't know what to do...

[BrightFuture]

Thanks everybody for your replies. I’ve been through some tough times since the BD 6 months ago. And I still do have some days when I’m so depressed and have no hope. My H left to spend some time in our vacation home on Dec.28. He called me on Dec.31 at about 11:20 pm to wish me Happy New Year. He knew that I was in my sister’s house, doing our traditional New Year celebration. He handed the phone to our friend over there (she was at the same party) and she wished me happy New Year too. I sent her an e-mail a couple of days ago and thanked her for remembering about me and asked her if it was her idea to call. She replied that it was H’s idea and he told her that he was calling me, so she could talk too. She also said that he’s been having a tough time, “admittedly self-inflicted”. I haven’t heard from him since the 31st. I’ve been keeping my silence, not calling, not e-mailing. I know that he will be coming back at some point, since we have to do our business and personal taxes. For now, I’m not doing much of GAL activities, since I feel my energy completely drained out. But not hearing from him is actually helping me to pull myself back together. I’m starting to catch myself thinking if I actually want him back the way he is now – distant and not caring. I don’t want to be with somebody who doesn’t want me as a wife and not just a friend. I still don’t have any proof of OW, even though I know that H tried to flirt with a couple of women, and who knows what was going on in state where he was working all summer and fall.
Yes, it sounds like I didn’t make lots of mistakes and have been handling this pretty good, but on the other side, I’m losing my hope, since it looks like what I’ve been doing is not getting him any closer. I admit that my NC and GAL activities are helping me to move with my life, even thought very slowly and painfully.