Yes, the no expectations are really hard. As far as GAL, I have been trying to think of things to do. The tough part is that we have two small children and I want to spend time with them. I don't really feel right or have the desire to go out and do stuff without them. Especially since if we do split then that will force me to be without them which will be VERY hard on me. She has said to me that it is nothing that I have or have not done. Her feelings have just changed. I guess that can happen, it just seems really strange to me. Our only real bump in the road was about 4 years ago when I had a serious health scare of my own. I became very depressed and pulled away emotionally and just wasn't a happy person. (This is so far from who i am. I am a very happy person.) This actually lasted a couple of years. Eventually she called me on it, we worked on it, and we seemed fine until this. Maybe this played a role. Maybe not. Who knows? I was very passive aggressive during that time and I will still go in that direction at times. I am working on that. I need to stop reading her mind and thinking the worst. It has been said many times that I cannot control what she does only what I do and how I respond. I need to really work on that. Thanks for the advice and please keep it coming.
M 37 W 36 T22 M14 D8 D4 8/2012 distanced BD 11/2012 (likely wants D. Feelings have changed.) W move out date: June 8th.
