I was pretty dedicated to working out and classes until a couple of weeks ago. So I stuck with that. Got very into kickboxing and stuff. I don't know. After I stopped crying after 6 months, I guess I was healing. I was getting stronger and seeing glimpses of who I was before the depression and separation. I did actively hide what was going on from people. I had a series of text messages from old friends giving their condolences regarding the separation. I largely ignored them. I didn't want to admit failure, I suppose. But I was getting stronger.
His promises have been empty across the board. Everything he said would be fixed, wasn't. He promised numerous times to stop drinking and he would for a day, but pick it back up again. There's been a explosion after Christmas with my family. They have made it clear to him that they want me gone. So, this is much different than before. Anyway, he has stopped drinking. Or so I thought... He's been sneaking drinks. And there's been him consistently texting with someone through the night and hiding his computer and stuff. Who knows what that is about but given his cheating and my ignorance in missing the signs of lying in the past? I just don't trust him. That's damage I will bring to all R's, unfortunately.
Oh, I'm not sure that bending to his will completely would resolve a thing. Look at me. That's been my approach... working perfectly... lol. But is there compromise? I'm also interested in what you mean about his children and "what you feel about them." Are we referring to the fact that you don't feel you should be supporting them or are we talking something a bit more emotional? Also, is there compromise in other areas? Eating off your plate, for instance... did that always annoy you or have you found it annoys you more because he's trampled on every other boundary? I've found myself doing that. Even the small things annoy the crap out of me now. So that's why I'm asking.
