I also wanted to comment on the "what does giving up look like?"

To me, giving up is telling yourself that there's nothing you need to work on, that you are the victim, that your spouse is a jerk and completely at fault, and that you will refuse to work on the relationship with them at all if they present you with an opportunity to reconcile, no matter what they are willing to do.

Agreeing to a divorce is not "giving up". Separating is not "giving up". Sometimes those are necessary steps to create distance. Moving on with your life when your spouse refuses to engage with you over a long period of time is not giving up either provided that you've learned from the experience and become a better person.

Sometimes there is simply nothing you can do to "get your spouse back." Accepting that is not the same as giving up.

Accuray


Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced
M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12
Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11
Start Reconcile: 8/15/11
Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced)
In a New Relationship: 3/2015