Hey there GTO, We all have our bad moments. At least you hung up and prevented it from becoming worse. The answer to your question is in your question. It hurts so much because you love him so much. Then again, you already knew that.
Take a portion of the love that you have given to him for so long and give it to yourself. You sound like a wonderful person and deserve self love. See the good in you. Get some rest. And you'll be a little better tomorrow.
