I will get by....

[wishing, hoping]

I just feel that once he gets the 50% he will be gone and they will be with OW. That's not good for them. That's my gut. It's not that I do not want them with their dad. He's never been around unless he "feels" like being a dad. It's gotten worse over the last two years.

And yes it's best he wants them rather than abandons them. But I don't think it's good for them to be shuffled back and forth.