I'm back after a month of more baloney. Now my H is numb again, no affection at all, does not want to ML and I believe he is contacting ow again because he is running downstairs and I saw him texting though he didn't know it and he may have another phone because he runs downstairs and I saw him with a phone charger. He denies he is contacting her but he is acting like he did in Sept. when I caught him skyping. So I got a job where I will be out amongst people and I'm not as depressed.
H has a real problem with my adult son. He does not live with us but during the holidays he was over quite a bit and my h is annoyed with him because he is immature and because he lets his sisters drive places when he should step up. My h is mad at me because it happened at christmas and son was going to let his sisters drive to a not so hot neighborhood where we were all going to church and we needed two cars. I said something to son about it and he drove, but h was infuriated for days. H said he can't separate my son from me, why? because I'm his mom he says. Also says he doesn't dislike my son but that he is annoyed by him.
We went to mc and my h was asked what I could do to help H with Numb feelings. H said he didn't know and and the problem was his. I told him that I am getting this lukewarm crap from H and I felt it was cruel and I feel rejected. H says he doesn't understand that. H was never a real affectionate guy to me except in the beginning but he says I wasn't. I used to ask h to kiss me and greet me coming home or going out but that didn't last long. I finally gave up. I think he may have finally checked out of this marriage especially if he is talking to ow. I told him if he is talking to her I am done. H is going to california to visit his cousin to get away and think. Maybe he is planning on leaving me and is hesitant cuz it will make him look bad or it's about assets. I'm getting to the point where I don't care as much.
