Oh I appreciate the questions, CV. I probably need a little preaching to. But I needed to be ready to hear it.
Oh not talking here is one thing. Not talking to those who cared enough to ask outside of a public forum is a whole other.
Funny you should mention the Christianity. I also joined a website that was Christian based. Save your M at all costs because this is what God commands of us. It has caused it's own confusion.
I have plenty of selfish behaviors still, CV. I'm no saint. But I hear you about taking care of myself. I have to get honest with myself. For so long I'd tell you how every R in my life was marked by being the one who cared the least. But my H broke me and I had to be real honest about who I was and what I wanted. I want someone who will chase me down... who will take the time to get me to open up because it is still so very very difficult for me. My best friend this week explained that I have an issue with that, which I always knew. It was explained to me how I ruin a lot of R's because of my inability to communicate authentically. And all of that is true. But I can't say I've picked anyone who cared enough to try all that much. I mean my H is perfectly willing to stay silent.
