My fear stems from not having my kids. They are my life. I live, breathe and sleep for my kids. That may not be healthy, but I have wanted kids my entire life and I waited until I thought I was settled and stable enough to take care of them. I married someone I thought was settled and stable. It makes me angry that he is backing out of our marital deal and our kids have to pay the price. I never wanted this for them. It's not fair to them. And for him to say he deserves them 50% of the time enrages me. It has nothing to do with me being the "mother" and him being the "father". It all has to do with what is coming from the heart. And I guess to me if I can get them more than 50% of the time then it is worth the time and aggravation. I need to keep my eyes on the prize.
I need to take things one day at a time. One moment at a time. Lord knows what H will do, good or bad. After all he did give me "permission" to stay with my mother one more day. LOL!
A pick axe? Oh Lord, he would be climbing the walls if I brought that home. I brought home a marshmallow shooter a few weeks ago and he was threatened by that!!! You would think a teenager would like that sort of thing.
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
