I guess giving up would mean no longer expecting to continue with W...At this point I need to drop the rope...when W called me to tell me that she could not take it any more and needed to move on so D(11) could go through the mourning process and be happy again...as if that is all it takes to make d(11) happy again. I kept telling her to calm down ...don't make any rash desecions...I told her I would talk to d(11) and get her to back off..etc...
I don't want to be that anymore, it is too hard to constantly tip toe around her and worry that at any time she is going to drop the boom..on me..I figure time is on my side but some times I feel like it is not. I can't sit and just wait for her to tell me she wants a D or she wants to reconcile.....I am not giving up just trying to get my mind to move on.
