Thanks Delboy. I'm not giving up on me, but I'm also not ready to give up on "us" (even if, in her warped mind, there is no longer an "us"). I was thinking last night that I can still be married no matter what she says or does. In a way, that helps because it lets me have some control. Marriage is a promise. I can keep that promise as long as I need to. The fact that I'm wearing my ring and she is not only serves to illustrate that point.
Still, I know that the finality of MC this Thurs is going to be extremely difficult for me. I've already made an individual therapy appt for Friday and am setting aside Fri-Sun for recovery time (I've learned the hard way that I need to have that time).
The bike is a '98 suzuki bandit 1200... it needs some work but I have all winter to do tinker with it. It already feels like a much needed distraction.
____________________________ "In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer." -- Albert Camus
Me:39 WAW:38 M:9 T:19, No Kids EA/PA with co-worker:9/24, ILYBINILWY, S:9/25 EA/PA on hold? (probably not), MC 9/30-now
