Mrs D...its been a long time. I haven't had to buy Denver a beer yet, but may be headed down that road. She has begun discussing seeing a counselor...we're still living seperately and hardly speak but its a step in the right direction i guess...
Denver, im gonna search you out but if you see this shoot me a message, probably gonna need some help on this one b/c I think its been long enough and i've let resentment build up enough that im not all the way "in" on working this thing out..she's willing to see a counselor and "try" according to her, and I've agreed to do the same...and im hoping my feelings change and change quickly b/c as it stands now im just not excited about the prospects.
Before you ask yes I have been to dinner a few times with someone...nothing physical, just friendship and laughs, but its put things in a different perspective for me...and its beyond amazing...add me to the list of people whose spouse isnt willing to even talk about possibly reconciling until they move on...drop the rope completely and then bam it changes.
Here's my problem with the entire thing...we've been completely apart since June...no sex, no nothing...barely a hello, and I thought when it started I couldnt make it through this. Obviously i did make it through and im a better person today b/c of it, but im scared to death of putting real hope and effort into working this out and then if it doesnt I have to go through this entire process of healing again. It has sucked and it took me a full 6 months to start to realize i was gonna be ok either way.
