Labug - great points. I was keeping a journal but I noticed it was turning into a place of negativity that I didn't want to share so I stopped. Now I post most my thoughts here and I try not to let myself get sucked into W's negative mindset on life. The things I've really been enjoying lately are:
* Play with kids (always enjoyed this) * Play video games with friends (It relaxes me and nice talking with friends, W hates them so I didn't do for long time) * Exercise and really push myself (used to feel guilty because W wasn't able to due to her condition so this is nice to get back to) * Hunt * Reconnect with old friends * Read (new Wheel of Time book today will be first non self help book I've read in over 2 months ) * See movies * Learning to play guitar
I'm also glad to hear that the ups and downs are normal. I used to feel so stable. Now I look back and wonder if it was more numb.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
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