No, you aren't having an MLC! You are still very sane and know right from wrong. What you are experiencing is very normal.

Yes, the court is the only one that can knock your h down a few pegs, but even the court will have difficulty w/him.

Try to enjoy your day.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.