Hang in there! He's trying to rile the kids up so that you'll snap. He really is not a happy camper and he wants you just as miserable as he is.
Try to have a pleasant day and know that your children are safe, loved and fed properly by you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.