I have trouble looking at her and she at me. Like I have nothing to say. She is one angry, bitter person. I had done a lot of soul searching over the past year and a half and while obviously not a perfect husband I have been faithful and honest and worked so hard for all we have. I made very good money over the years and I always thought I spoiled her and the kids. I gave in to everything. I really though i was doing everything for them and that is what she wanted. never gave me a clue ( or at least that i noticed) that things were amiss. she would even tell me i was the best husband and dad possible right up until the bomb. I am sure i expressed how i felt but i guess not in her LL. Emotionally I missed something for her obviously but really in the grander scheme of things the hatred and disdain for me is surreal and I just cannot see it justified. Sorry I am angry today...I feel so used.
Wow, now I'm starting to think we're identical also because these are almost identical feelings to what I have. If we weren't in same house I wouldn't talk with my W either, it's a complete act right now. I've been feeling really used for the last week or so but instead of angry I'm now more into the sad phase (was very angry last week). I posted something very similar in my sitch yesterday because I did everything for my W and was only one there through her big life issues and now I'm the bad guy over things 15 years ago that she never let go. She never has taken blame for her things or shown appreciation for anything I did. I can't figure out where all the resentment has come from either. Yesterday I was so down I wanted to call and ask her WTF is wrong with her but thankfully I didn't. Her (old) best friend called me the other day and said it breaks her heart to see what has happened to my W and how cold she has become to everyone.
Just stay the course and we'll get to our destination.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
