Again, we got to take this journey and look at who we are, make the changes and continue on.. It is a gift in really bad wrapping and you struggle to open it, the paper gives you cuts and it is generally a pain in the a$$.
This is something the majority of our spouses will never get to do. I am sorry she blames you for everything and won't take responsibility, but you may never be able to change it. Or she will come to realization that you were the best thing in her life and she was a fool.
My goal is to be down the path far enough that if R or D happens, I am exactly in the same place. This is where all the work in DB gets you. That you realize that whatever happens may not necessarily be what you want, but you know you will be okay, because you have already been traveling that path and it is a little easier to continue than to take the first step.
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