Soul.Searching my way back.

[Soul.Searching]

The camping gear was brought as a family, for our family and has been used many times. I used it for the first time, without H just last week. I can't imagine wanting to use it again, after H uses it with OW in a few weeks.
If money wasent an issue, I'd just give it to him, without feeling bitter.
I asked him about that when he was moving out and he said he was leaving it for me. I don't want it back after they use it.
It sounds childish and I don't like being that person but really?
I would hate sleeping in that tent after he used it etc.

If he takes it, he can shove it where the sun don't shine.

H has been talking about being friends and about still being there for me and still doing stuff for me. I don't need him! He hasent been there for me when I found out about my Aunt, he was there the day of the funeral? That's it.
He wasent there for me when I lost my dear old cat or when I lost two beautiful dogs in one day. I don't want to be friends with OW and I know that's what he wants.
I don't want her coming to S8's football matches.
I don't like her! I don't like someone who is supposed to be a mother herself and yet sees no problem with dating a man three months after a marriage breakdown, sees nothing wrong with having his children sleep there less than four months after a marriage breakdown.

As for Facebook, I removed him as a friend a few weeks ago but stuff still gets back to me. he told me he would get his Mum to save all my FB photos of the kids for him!! How rude, they are my photos! My memories. I sure don't want his photos.

On another note: I have almost done the kids rooms. They had to be rearranged because of Christmas stuff. It should be done by the time they get back hopefully.