SB, keep talking, keep posting, keep letting it out. You are so, so remarkable. Crying is okay, crying in front of girls is okay too, you are only human. You feel sad and weak, but you are seriously one of the strongest women I know. I would have crumpled by now and you are still standing, well, waddling, but hey :p

Listen to me. Tomorrow you look in the mirror. You affirm every time you need to that you are amazing. You have amazing friends and family. Your kids are wonderful. You can do this..I know it