New to the forum, WAH 10/3/12

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H came by the house yesterday to see DD before he left for a few days and to bring C/S check. $300 .. which is last week and this week. He was running late and needed to get going. I immediately thought "why are you running late? What was you doing?" but I did not voice it. I wanted to so bad, but of course my mind went racing to "other" things ... like what was him and OW doing to make him late? Kinda made me sick and sad all at the same time. When does that stop? When I find someone to occupy my thoughts so I don't have just him and his OW to focus on.

Anyways, the visit was short and good. He looked good and I had on make up and clean hair - probably not looking great (I was dressed like I normally would be on a Sunday afternoon). But we chatted about the trade show he was going to. I did send him a text later in the day about a boy he coached in Football that was in our local paper (good thing) and then today asking about the trade show. I know, not 180, but I'm very interested in finding out. Of course, no answer. Doesn't suprise me though. If I checked the phone records, I'm sure he got it and texted OW instead.... that's the reason I don't check. It just makes me sad!